Homeless in Arizona

I wonder if I am going to die pretty soon.

Last night I couldn't sleep and and nightmares most of the night.

Maybe I will be murdered by the police or government pretty soon for thinking I have Constitutional rights.

Maybe I will be murdered by my brother who I suspect has stolen everything I own.

Or maybe I will just be murdered by some strangers on the street.

My father tries to commit me to the nut house

I think pretty much all my life my father has hated me. I suspect when he did that it was just his way of trying to kick me out of his home to get rid of me.

My mom told me that my father really loved me until I was about 6 months old, and then he seemed to do a 100% flip and started hating me.

I really don't know or care what I did wrong. And I don't think a logical person could accuse a 6th month old baby of doing something wrong.

One day when I was in high school my father told me I needed to undergo some mental tests and took me down to the Arizona State Insane Asylum or Arizona State Nuthouse as we called it when we were kids.

It's on 24th Street and Van Buren and in those days the the slang term "24th Street and Van Buren" was a synonym for the "nut house" or "insane asylum".

When I went down there they just gave me a bunch of test. What I remember are the ink blot tests where they show you a bunch of photos or images of ink blots and they ask you what you think of them.

I was just pretty scared when this happened.

To be honest to me all the stupid ink blots looked like, well meaningless ink blots.

But to make the shrinks happy I came up with a bunch of nice sounding things that the ink blots looked like to keep the shrinks happy.

Nothing happened out of that, and I never went back to the Arizona State Mental Hospital, so I suspect my father's attempt to commit me to the nut house was a dismal failure.

My brother tries to murder me by dropping a brick on my head???

I have always wondered if my father tried to murder me by having my brother drop a brick on my head??

When I was a little kid and they were building the Mathew's Paint Store on 32nd Street and Thomas Road my brother dropped a brick on my head.

Obviously it didn't kill me or even put me in the hospital. Hell, it didn't do anything to me other then giving me a nasty cut on the head.

Since my father was with my brother Tom when he dropped the brick on my head, I wonder if my father told Tom to drop the brick on my head in an attempt to murder me.

That happened when I was in 5th grade or before.

I suspect probably a lot earlier, maybe when I was in third grade.

The exact date can be gotten by getting the date the Mathews Paint store was build on 32nd Street and Thomas Road.

Beat him Tommy, Beat him up Tommy!!!

Instead of breaking up the fight, I remember my father yelling at my younger brother Tom

Beat him Tommy, Beat him up Tommy!!!

Based on that I suspect my father has hated me since I was a young child.

I don't know how old I was when that happened, but I suspect I was in maybe 3rd grade and my brother Tom was in 1st grade.

At the time we both went to St Agnes Catholic School in Phoenix.

Was Tom involved in the Danny Rivera murder???

I's sorry I probably spelled Mackalousos name wrong, but what happened in that case is that he was murdered by Danny Rivera.

My brother used to live with a guy named Danny Rivera. They grew up with us in South Scottsdale.

Danny Rivera operated a car detailing business. We didn't know this but the car detailing business was used as a front to steal cars, take them to Mexico and trade the for heroin.

The Mackalousos guy who also grew up with us in south Scottsdale ripped off Danny Rivera in a heroin deal.

Danny Rivera then had Mackalousos murdered. I don't think he committed the murder himself, but paid some people to do it.

Mackalousos body was discovered years later buried near the Salt River or Verde River, and Danny Rivera was implicated in the crime and ended up doing some prison time for it.

I don't think he plead guilty to murder, but it was some other related crime which he got in a plea bargain.

I have always wondered if my brother was involved in that murder.

My brother turned into a Jesus freak at that time and I also have always wondered in he turned into a Jesus freak because he was involved in the murder of Mackalousos.

Danny Rivera's father was also a big time white collar criminal, which we found out after he got busted for white collar crimes.

He was one of the owners of R & T Investments which were involved in the Ned Warren land fraud crimes in Arizona.

I think R & T Investments stood or Rivera & Traumdie Investments.

What they did is sold worthless 2nd mortgages to investors. Those worthless 2nd mortgages were created in New Warrens land fraud empire.

Both Danny's father and the Trumidie guy ended up doing time in the Arizona Prison. In fact I think Danny's father died in prison.

They used to make fun of us and call us poor Italians in South Scottsdale, because they moved to a nice home in North Scottsdale.